I know you'll likely be mad at me for apologizing for not posting sooner, but consider this one anyway. You think I shouldn't worry about such things in the midst of my grief, but I truly wish I had sooner. You have all entered into this with us, rejoicing with us, praying with us, hoping with us, and sorrowing with us. That means more than I can say and I want to share with you because it is one way God redeems this trial for His glory.
Ian was born January 21 at 11:42 pm. He weighed 4lbs 2oz and was 13 in long. He lived just 13 minutes, passing at 12:55. Most of his short life was spent lying on my chest against my cheek with Daniel's hand holding him there. Every second was a blessed gift that I will remember and cherish for the rest of my life.
God was gracious in allowing my mom, grandparents and best friend to arrive before the c-section had to be started. I was able to spend a few precious minutes with them before being taken for surgery prep.
After the c-section was done, Ian already gone by then, I was taken to recovery and then to a private room where all the family could see Ian and spend some time with him and each other.
My surgery went well, and my recovery has been great so far. I've been home since Monday and steadily getting better.
I know this post isn't my usual writing. There are more facts and less thoughts and feelings. That's most definitely not because I'm not having them. I just haven't had time to write them out. My family is all here staying with us and time to write hasn't come yet, but I can feel the need arising and you can be sure I'll be posting again soon. In the meantime, please know that I'm more thankful than I know how to say for how God has used you all to love and comfort us. We are still holding as tightly, if not more, to our sure hope that God is good.
Love and grace to you all,
Jen
5 comments:
I love this photo. You are so generous, to update us. It's a blessing to be in this Christian life together. I, and so many others, are praying for you guys during this incredibly difficult time.
I'm so sorry for the loss of your dear boy, and so thankful for the mercy of God toward him.
What a beautiful picture. Ian is a handsome little fellow!
Jen,
I heard about your blog from a friend of a friend and have been following your posts for the past week or so. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son, he is so perfect!I am also so encouraged by your faith and trust in our great and awesome God. We also said goodbye to our first son, Nehemiah, about a month ago. He was three weeks old. We know first hand the incredible pain and joy of seeing our child being ushered into eternity. We are so thankful our children are in the hands of the merciful and loving Father. May He be very close to you and very tangible during this time! May He also receive all glory!
Jen, always praying for you. Glad you are getting your strength back, and that our Heavenly Father is holding you up through this even still.
I just read your last two blogs to our family, and showed your precious picture as well. Thank you for sharing your life, faith, and hope with any one you meet. We are praying for your continued healing and strength. Love to you and Daniel both. Deanna (Angela's Mom)
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